Guthrie Okla.
920W.Mansor Ave.
Sept. 7, 1943
Dear Carrie,
With much pleasure and gladness I received your very
welcomed and inspiring letter this evening.
We get mail twice each day.
(except Sun) I thought I might receive a letter from you in the morning
mail, but I didn’t. So that left me
expecting stronger than ever one this evening.
I am glad my expectations weren’t in vain.
Truly
your letters are lots different from any I ever received from any other
girl. They are very helpful and
encouraging to me. One main way they are
different, in that they seem to me written by one who is hid behind the cross,
and by one who is letting Christ himself do the writing. I also want to do the same.
You
know it is very easy for boys and girls to let self get in the way when they
are writing to each other . But I trust
we won’t do that. For there is much more
peace, joy, and contentment when we let Christ lead in all things.
I
will tell you another main reason why your letters are so much different and
that is be cause you are different from any other girl. You letters reads just like your actions,
which are very pleasant to me.
I am still saved and happy in the Good Lord. Truly I get much joy and satisfaction in
serving God. His holy will and ways are
more precious to me each day of my life.
I know I can never thank him enough for all the blessings of life,
especially salvation. I am thankful that
he saved my soul in my youth so that I can spend my life in his service. I want to be all he would have me to be.
I
had ten thousand times rather spend my life living and working for God as to
live in sin. Even though I could have
riches abundantly I had still rather have peace with God. Truly all earthly riches are not to be
compared of the fact of knowing God, which means the same as having God, and
having Christ living and reigning in our souls.
Paul said he “counted all things but as loss so that he might win
Christ.”
I am
glad that you had a nice time with your Mother and sister. Yes I am sure you and your sister are pretty
close Pals. It reminds me of my brother
(just older than I am) and myself. We
use to be pretty close pals, and are yet.
But I am sure it would be much better if he was saved which I hope to
see him be some day.
Yes
Carrie I too think that people should be interested in the same thing before
they took upon them selves of spending their life to gether. I also think that we can tell more about
things after that we are to gether a gain.
I am
sure thankful that you gave me a welcome to come up there. I am sure I will enjoy seeing you a gain and
talking with you.
I
don’t know just as yet when I will bet to com, but I probably won’t be so
long. I will try to let you know when I
am coming.
I am
still working here in the Printing shop.
I don’t know how much longer I will be here. I will Probably
leave before the first of Oct. as Bro. Merrel W. from La. Will likely be here
before the fist of next month. He is
planning on working here then.
Carrie
I am glad that you enjoyed having Bro. Strech Preach. ( I am sure I would too,
but never have.) I am also glad that you
enjoy teaching the Junior Sun. School class.
I am sure you are a good teacher.
Carrie
I think we had a good teacher up at Langdon Mo.
If there was trouble it was probably because we had a hard lesson, and
not be cause we didn’t have a good teacher.
Well
Carrie I am glad (very glad) to know that you care more about me than just a
friend. Although I am also sure it is best to leave our love
some-what in the back-ground until we find out the will of the Lord on some
other things. Not that I don’t think that the Lord is still in
our court-ship. But that it would
probably be easier for us to know the will of the Lord on other things.
I
still believe (even stronger than ever) that the Lord has led us in all of our
steps that we have taken. I felt that
way even before I asked you about writing to you. Although as I said before I don’t want to
bind my feelings on you. For I know God can
make us both feel clear to take the steps that he wants us to take.
It
was real cool here last night and this morning. It reminded me of the weather we had up at
Langdon, Mo. While I was reminded of
that I was also reminded of that dear girl (Carrie) that I was with a few hours
which I enjoyed so much.
I
can say that I feel sure that I would enjoy being with you again. (even more than before)
I am
praying that God will continue to talk to both of us and reveal his will more
and more on his leadings for us.
I
will tell you this, and that is that I really feel like I need some more sure
leadings for my self concerning just exactly what God would have me do, before
we were to marry.
When
I was back home (in Ala.) the Lord seems to make it plain to me that he wanted
me to come back out there to work for him, Both spiritually and
temporally. My job that I had then was
in a cotton-mill five days per week. I
had Sat. and Sun. off to do what ever God wanted to do.
It
also seemed to be plain that it was God’s will for me to marry and have a home
there in B’ham, Ala. As I felt burden for the work of the Lord there, and had
hopes of God raising a congregation up there.
You see I was looking forward for God to send some more saint Ministers
in there to work for him. There isn’t
any saints there, so I thought if I had a home there I would have a chance to work
for God in doing what ever and all he led me to do and it would also give other
Ministers a chance to come in there and work as the Lord led them.
I was writing to Ida May Smith
then , and naturally I just felt pretty sure that she would be the one that the
Lord would give me. Although I found out
different when we got to gether a gain.
All of this seems very plain and
real before I left Ala. I believed it
was God’s will with out a doubt. I still
earnestly believe that God will lead and is leading that way, but here is what
I have been trying to get to. And that
is (even though those leadings seemed very plain and from God that I want a
refreshed leading concerning the matter Before I go (Lord willing.)
This has been quite a trial of
faith with me, But I guess the Lord knows best.
What I mean is how that he made it so plain that he wanted me out there
and then he took me up and set me down out here and let me stay here until now
with out telling me just when he would send me back. But I am still trusting in God with all my
heart and believing that he will work all things out for our good and his
glory. I have often reminded the Lord of
how he witnessed to me about going out there.
It would seem good to me (a
blessing that I am unworthy of) that the Lord would give you for my wife and
companion to go out there and work for him.
Truly I would feel greatly blessed.
I will continue to pray for God
to lead us in every step that he would have us take.
If you can’t get some new
pictures made pretty early, you may send me one of the ones that you already
have and then feel assured that I will appreciate it very much.
Well I had better say goodnight
and good by for this time as it is after one o’clock A.M.
Love
T.V. McMillian