You Will Find Out I Am Tricky

Neosho, Mo

Oct. 29, 1943

My dear Mac,

  Thought I would drop you a few lines and leave it with your things. Grandma and I intend to got to town right afternoon, and we thought we would take your things and leave them at the house where you stay. I suppose you will be at work, so I don’t guess I’ll get to see you.

Well I’m glad this morning that we can always have bright hopes in the Lord. Our surroundings may appear dark sometimes, but we can still have sunshine from heaven in our souls. I’m glad for salvation. It is something that never becomes old or tiresome to us. Instead of that, we only learn to appreciate the Lord more and more as the days go by. I believe that is one reason the Lord permits things to happen sometimes that are unpleasant to us, and also lets us to get in places so that we can’t see our way out. For that causes us to trust Him more fully when we see we are too weak in our own strength. And when we see it is impossible for us to make the way clear ourselves, then when the Lord steps in and opens up ways for us, then we really know how to appreciate Him better than before.

  I thought last night during prayer meeting, when Sis. Dean and Sis. Reese testified and told about being alone all the time, and how they would sit and think. I thought that it is just the opposite with me. It is so hard for me to find a quiet hour, so I can think and meditate. I would be glad if I could share part of their quiet hours, for I love to be alone part of the time. But I’m not complaining at my lot in life. Perhaps since I don’t very often get the opportunity of being alone, maybe that helps to cause me to be more earnest in seeking the Lord, and to learn of Him.

We both must have been almost of the same mind last night in prayer meeting. As you said I had your testimony.

  —Well I will now try to finish this. It is after mail time now , and we are about ready to start to town. Your mail cam that we were expecting. I didn’t take the package undone, but the end of the box was torn, so I could see the suit. It is a little darker color than I thought it would be, but it is pretty, I think.

  Anyhow it looks better than I dreamed it did. I thought about taking it along today and leaving it with your other things. But I didn’t know whether to or not. So I just decided to let you wait, as you planned to come tomorrow evening. — I thought it would be a good excuse for you to come.

(Now I know you will find out I am tricky) ha. But really I’ll be glad to see you come.

It seems that the times we get to be together are so short. But yet those times are very precious, as I always enjoy your presence. Those talks we have about the Lord seems to bring heaven nearer. And also binds our hearts closer together.

  Well I could write more, but I don’t have time. I hope we can get to talk more. —I wonder sometimes when we would ever get through talking if we were not disturbed. There is always something new to tell about our experiences with the Lord. And I think it is helpful to each other to tell the things we learn. And I’ve learned some things the last few days that I needed. It took some fire to consume the dross, but I sure wouldn’t exchange the gold that I got in the furnace flame for anything.

  Well maybe I’ll get to see you tomorrow eve., if the Lord wills.

  I know I can’t write anything that would bring as much cheer to your heart as your good letter brought to me that I got a few days ago. But anyhow I thought I would drop you a few lines and leave it with your things, and you can at least know that I’m thinking about you.

  I must hurry now, and say goodbye to the one who is dear to me.

Yours, with Love,

Carrie.

Wishing to See You

Neosho, Mo

Route 3

Sept. 30, 1943

Dear Carrie,

  Greetings to you in the name of Jesus Christ, our blessed Lord.

We have just got back from the prayer meeting. Every on here are in bed except my self. I thought I would write my sweet girl friend a letter before I went to bed as I want to be sure and get it in the morning mail.

  As we were coming back from church to night I was thinking about what I told you concerning when I would see you again, which I understand was Sun. The thing I want to say is that I hope to see you before Sun. I hope you will forgive me for not asking you about it to night at church I also hope it will be alright with you. I guess I will just have to go and hoping and trusting that you will understand. I really hadn’t considered it much until we had left the church. So now if the Good Lord wills, I will try to see you Sat. evening some time. I guess this is as near as I can tell you. If Bro. Wyatt is in town Sat. I guess I can come out with him, but if not I will try, and see have it seem to walk out there.

  As far as I know now I will be leaving Neosho about Mon. to go back to Guthrie and I just got to thinking about how little time we would have to gether be fore I left if I didn’t see you before Sun. I am sure I would enjoy being with you more than just Sun.

  I guess I could write quite a lot if I were to take the time but since it is getting late and since I expect to see you soon I will say good by to the girl that has been, and is, a real encouragement to me, and to the girl that I love and respect as my only girl friend.

 

(I love you, Mc)

I Appreciate Your Understanding

Guthrie Okla.

920 W. Mansur Ave

Sept. 23, 1943

Dear Carrie,

Greetings in Jesus’ dear name.

This finds me still saved sanctified and happy in the Lord.  Truly we have something to be happy over.  I am happy and thankful because I have found the Savior.  He doesn’t only save us but we find he keeps us saved each day of our life as we continue to yield over our self unto God.  I am glad that we can know that God is able and will help us to hold-out faithfully until the end.  I was thinking and meditating the other day about the goodness of God and how precious it was to really have God in our hearts and to know that some day we can meet God and all his saints face to face and live with them for-ever.  Then the thought came to me “yes but it will really mean something to stand all the trials and test that comes our way while in this life.  Your trial may be so hard that you will think that you can not bear them and then you will probably give up.”  That sounds pretty much like the devil, doesn’t it?  Then after this I thought about other faithful ones that have stood true, and I also thought about how that God has promised in his word not to let more come our way than we are able to bear.  This last thought brought peace joy and contentment to my heart.  Truly God will help each one of us to win that crown of ever-lasting life if we will just keep a perfect heart toward him which I intend to do by his help.

With much pleasure and gladness I received another letter from my most dearest and only girl friend yesterday, which left a real inspiration in my heart.  I can truthfully say that every letter that I have received from you has been a real heavenly pleasure to me.  It seems that they are getting better.  I can not express in words of the good that I received from your last letter.  Truly it was an encouragement to me.  I also received that pretty picture of you which I am very glad to get.  I thank it is real good.  I can look at it and it brings to my memory that heavenly girl that I was with some up at Langdon.  I thank you very much for it.

We have been pretty busy here at the Lord’s print shop this week.  We have been working on the Faith and Victory most of the time.  We finished it to day.  It is ready for mailing now.

You spoke in your letter about some more girls coming back to Neosho which added more to your number there.  Well we also have some more people added to the office force here.  Bro. Messel Williamson from La. arrived here about noon yesterday.  He is the boy that I have been telling you was coming up here.  He is saved and sanctified, and a very precious young Bro. And as you already know (I suppose) Sis. Rosselle came in last night.  She helped us some with the paper today.   I don’t know how long she will be here.

Now about those glass girls that you mentioned in your last letter.  No I really don’t know them by that name.  Although I do remember seeing some girls up there at the camp meeting, which some one told me that they were Sisters.  But I don’t know what their names were.  The ones that I am thinking about had red hair and one of them were crippled in-so-much that she couldn’t walk real well.  Is this the ones that you were writing about?

Carrie I am sure you don’t know how I appreciate your views concerning me and my problems.  I am glad that you under-stand about them.  It seems from reading your letter that you understand almost perfectly about what I write you even if I can’t explain my self very well.

I appreciate very much the way you consider things.  I am glad that we can just set down and write the truth to each other and then under-stand each other when we read each other’s letter.

The thing that makes it seem so good for us to under stand each other, is that we are both trying to please the good Lord in every thing we do and then to think that we both realize this. I can truthfully say that I have found that I can please the Lord, or in other words follow his leadings and then you still seem to under-stand and realize that I am doing the right thing.  Truly I am thankful for this.

I think it is a precious thing for young people to be where they can just commit all things unto the hands of God and let him work their problems out for them.  I know God knows but for each one of us and he will do the best for us if we will let him.

When God leads us a certain way, and then when we follow his leadings we find that he is always near to help us in time of need, and to if we know that we have obeyed the Lord in all things we can with confidence ask him to help us when we are being tried.  Other wise (as you have said) we would be in trouble and we wouldn’t feel so bold to come to God and ask for help.

I will admit that this waiting has been more or less a trial to me.  But I can truthfully say that I have not murmured nor complained a gainst the Good Lord.  I have only asked him to give me patience grace and wisdom to know how to do his will.

I realize that I am obeying the Lord to the best of my knowledge, and when we do that we can know that that scripture is for our comfort which says “for we know that all things work to-gether for good to them that love the Lord and them who are called according to his purpose.”

I am thankful that the good Lord is teaching me lessons.  He knows what is best for us.

Well Carrie I am still waiting on the Lord to direct my step concerning me leaving here and about what we have been talking or writing about.  Since we have as much help as we do here I don’t see where I will be needed very much here now.  Although I still want the Lord to make his will plain to me before I leave.

Since I have been back from the Langdon camp-meeting I have felt a little more like that God was wanting me to preach than I did part of the time I was up there.  I have made an effort to preach down here at the chapel the last two Sun. nights.  I felt clear that I obeyed the Lord by doing so.

You see Willie hasn’t been here for the last week or two and so Bro. Pruitt told me to move out if the Lord gave me a message.  I didn’t move out just to please Bro. Pruitt.  But I waited until I felt sure that it was God’s will.  Although I will say it would have been hard for me to get up there if Bro. Pruitt hadn’t said what he didn’t.  I only got up to obey the Lord and to deliver my soul.  The Lord helped me enough to keep me from being discouraged.  I am thankful for this I only pray that God will lead me in the ways that my soul will prosper the most and the way that I can do the most for him, what ever it may be.

Carrie I still feel more clear that the Lord is leading us to unite out efforts to-gether for him.  Although I realize that we need some more leadings on other lines before we could consider of really going into the act.  And I am just glad for both of us to seek the Lord for his ways and only move as he moves.

I am glad that I have real confidence in you that you are real sincere about the matter and want to do as the Lord leads you.  I am thankful for the answer you gave me concerning how you felt a bout the leadings of the Lord on the matter.  I could not ask you to do any different.  Neither do I want you to do different.

Well it is getting late so I had better close for this time.  I think every one else here are in bed a sleep.  But before I close I have another thing or two I want to say.

First I still hope to come up to Neosho some time I hope before too long to see you although I don’t know just when.  Another thing is a bout the picture business.  I was glad to hear about the compliment.  I am glad your Mother thought that you were having fellowship with some one that looked nice to her.  Now I want to say that I also heard a compliment on you too.  I showed your Picture to a certain one and they said that you looked like a sweetly saved girl.  I heartily a greed with them.

I must say Good bye for this time to the girl that brightens my hopes.  (as ever Mc)

(click to enlarge) sorry they are backwards.

Waiting on the Lord for Direction

Guthrie Okla.

920 W. Mansur Ave.

Sept. 15, 1943

Dear Carrie,

Greetings in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our blessed Lord.

This finds me still saved and sanctified and all on the alter for God.  Truly I am encouraged to live closer to God each day of my life.  His holy will and ways become more precious to me each day of my life.  I can say like the “apostle John” that his commandments are not grievous although we find when we do them that we have trials and test, yet they still aren’t grievous to our hearts.  They are probably grievous to our fleshly man, but not to our hearts. (I am glad the good Lord gives us power over the flesh.)

With gladness I receive another letter from my only girl friend last Tue.  I was sure glad to get it.

It seems like Tue. is a happy day with me.  Do you see my point?  I received three letters from you and they all came on Tue.

I usually begin to kindly look for a letter from you from the day that I think you have had time to answer.  Then I keep looking until Tue.  When Tue. comes around, I think, well I will be sure to get one to day because she (Carrie) has had the week end to write.  However from what you say in your letters about your company on the week ends I may have been thinking wrong.  But any way I haven’t failed to get an answer yet, for which I am thankful.  I can still truthfully say that your letters are a real heavenly pleasure to me.  They are very helpful and encouraging.

One thing you had in your letter that was helpful to me was what you said about just waiting on the Lord.  Truly I needed that.

I am thankful indeed for the many precious lessons that the Good Lord has been, and is, teaching me.  I am glad that he thinks enough of me to let me go through these little trials and test.  I was just thinking to day how good the Lord was to us and what a wonderful salvation that he has given us.  Then I thought for sure that I wanted to be that I make it into heaven that I might live with God and the pure for ever.  I know if we do stand true until the end, that we will have to let God have his way with us which often times brings about some severe trials and test.  But even at that I still mean to serve God all my days by his help.  I have found too great a treasure to turn back.  Well after some prayer and waiting upon the Lord, I am still waiting upon him to direct my steps concerning leaving here and going to Ala.

Just after I wrote you the last time I began to feel sure that the Lord was about ready for me to go back.  So I began to more or less plan to go.  I was intending to leave here some time this week.  I was thinking pretty strong about leaving Wed.  But as time moved on and wed. drawing near I failed to feel clear to go.  I will tell you what the main reasons was that kept me from going.

You see I had wrote you and asked you about coming up there before I went back to Ala. (Don’t misunderstand me I was planning to come up there, had I left this week) But as I continued to pray and wait upon the Lord about the matter, I began to realize that I didn’t have a clearness in my soul concerning me coming by up there.  (I mean I didn’t have a clearness to come right now.  I was also lacking in temporal needs.  I was counting on the Lord giving me the clearness in my soul concerning coming up there, and supplying my temp need.  But as the time drew near which I had planned to go I failed to have the clearness in my soul and also the temporal need.  When this happened I was pretty much perplexed in knowing what to do.  I couldn’t come by up there under the foregoing circumstance, and neither could I feel right (by a lot) to go on to Ala. With out coming by to see you.  For I remembered how sure I felt that I was in the will of the Lord when I was with you and how that I felt the Lord had made so many other things plain to me concerning you and I.  Thus naturally under these conditions the didn’t seem to be much that I could do except just wait on the Lord.  But I really didn’t settle down until I had let my mind get still (resisted the Devil).  Then after I did that the Lord made me feel good to just commit it unto him, which I did.  This was Tue. The same day I received your letter.  I guess you can see why I said I needed what you wrote in your letter about being still and waiting upon the Lord.  I mean by God’s grace and help to do just that.

Carrie I hope you don’t get bothered with me and my ways.  I guess you probably know about how I feel.

Carrie I still feel the same way concerning you and in uniting in holy matrimony as I did when I wrote you the first letter.    I fasted and prayed about the matter (before we were together the last night of the meeting) and the Lord just seemed to make it very plain to me that it was his will.  Then after I came home and started to write you I thought well what will I write.  Really what was on my heart is just exactly what I wrote you.  But I hesitated before I would write it because we hadn’t been going together but a very little while.  But when I was thinking of not writing what I did, then I didn’t seem to have anything much to write.  So I just decided to for-get the shortness of our being together and just write what I thought was the truth.  I know that was a big step to take so quick, but yet I felt I was doing the right thing.

Carrie don’t get me wrong, I don’t expect you to just make a quick decision about this matter without me being able to tell you some things.  I realize that I should be able to know and to tell you lots more of what to expect of the early part of our life together before I could expect you to be willing to say yes to my question.  Although I felt it was all right for me to put the question before you so you could be praying about it and considering it.

Do you feel any more leading than you did concerning the matter?  Or is this question coming too soon?  If it is just skip it.

As you already know from what I have done said, I really don’t have real definite leadings sufficient enough to enable me to tell you much more then I have done told you.

I know as we look to God and wait upon him he will lead us in due time and he will do all things well.  Then we will be happy because we will know that he is with us.

Carrie you didn’t say anything about you picture in the last letter.  I thought you might have forgotten about it or I thought perhaps you thought I would probably be up there with in a few days and you would just wait and give it to me then.  But what I want to say is that I would like for you to send it on as soon as you can as I don’t know just when I will get up there.

I will be earnestly praying for God to make his will more plainer to me concerning coming up there and other things too.  Some people might think it strange to pray about a matter like that, but I have found that if we want God to go with us and up hold us that we have to be sure to go in his leadings.

Carrie you said that you was sorry you didn’t get my letter off any sooner than you did. Well I guess I just appreciate them more when I have to wait a little while.  I hope you don’t think that I am to long with mine this time.

I guess you will miss Anna pretty much as that don’t leave many young people there, but as you said I am sure the older saints are good to you so I know the saint there and the Lord will keep you encouraged.

Well it is getting late at night so I guess I had better say good by for the time to the girl that I think lots of and to the one that has helped to brighten my path-way.

With Christian love

T. V. McMillian.

P.S. I thank you for praying for me.  Please continue to do so.  I am praying for you.  (Mc)

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Grandpa's Voice

I was sitting on my bed reading my Bible, and my mind must have wandered because in my head I heard grandpa's voice again--low and a little unsteady but still loving, joyful, and gentle.  I cherish the memories of Grandpa McMillian.

This picture of grandpa's roses were on a set of  slides we recently  converted to digital.

Blessings,

Alyssa

Seeking More Direction

Guthrie Okla.

920W.Mansor Ave.

Sept. 7, 1943

Dear Carrie,

          With much pleasure and gladness I received your very welcomed and inspiring letter this evening.  We get mail twice each day.  (except Sun) I thought I might receive a letter from you in the morning mail, but I didn’t.  So that left me expecting stronger than ever one this evening.  I am glad my expectations weren’t in vain.

         Truly your letters are lots different from any I ever received from any other girl.  They are very helpful and encouraging to me.  One main way they are different, in that they seem to me written by one who is hid behind the cross, and by one who is letting Christ himself do the writing.  I also want to do the same.

         You know it is very easy for boys and girls to let self get in the way when they are writing to each other .  But I trust we won’t do that.  For there is much more peace, joy, and contentment when we let Christ lead in all things.

          I will tell you another main reason why your letters are so much different and that is be cause you are different from any other girl.  You letters reads just like your actions, which are very pleasant to me.

          I am still saved and happy in the Good Lord.  Truly I get much joy and satisfaction in serving God.  His holy will and ways are more precious to me each day of my life.  I know I can never thank him enough for all the blessings of life, especially salvation.  I am thankful that he saved my soul in my youth so that I can spend my life in his service.  I want to be all he would have me to be.

          I had ten thousand times rather spend my life living and working for God as to live in sin.  Even though I could have riches abundantly I had still rather have peace with God.  Truly all earthly riches are not to be compared of the fact of knowing God, which means the same as having God, and having Christ living and reigning in our souls.  Paul said he “counted all things but as loss so that he might win Christ.”

          I am glad that you had a nice time with your Mother and sister.  Yes I am sure you and your sister are pretty close Pals.  It reminds me of my brother (just older than I am) and myself.  We use to be pretty close pals, and are yet.  But I am sure it would be much better if he was saved which I hope to see him be some day.

          Yes Carrie I too think that people should be interested in the same thing before they took upon them selves of spending their life to gether.  I also think that we can tell more about things after that we are to gether a gain.

          I am sure thankful that you gave me a welcome to come up there.  I am sure I will enjoy seeing you a gain and talking with you.

          I don’t know just as yet when I will bet to com, but I probably won’t be so long.  I will try to let you know when I am coming.

          I am still working here in the Printing shop.  I don’t know how much longer I will be here.  I will Probably leave before the first of Oct. as Bro. Merrel W. from La. Will likely be here before the fist of next month.  He is planning on working here then.

         Carrie I am glad that you enjoyed having Bro. Strech Preach. ( I am sure I would too, but never have.)  I am also glad that you enjoy teaching the Junior Sun. School class.  I am sure you are a good teacher.

         Carrie I think we had a good teacher up at Langdon Mo.  If there was trouble it was probably because we had a hard lesson, and not be cause we didn’t have a good teacher.

         Well Carrie I am glad (very glad) to know that you care more about me than just a friend.  Although I am also sure it is best to leave our love some-what in the back-ground until we find out the will of the Lord on some other things.  Not that I don’t think that the Lord is still in our court-ship.  But that it would probably be easier for us to know the will of the Lord on other things.

          I still believe (even stronger than ever) that the Lord has led us in all of our steps that we have taken.  I felt that way even before I asked you about writing to you.  Although as I said before I don’t want to bind my feelings on you.  For I know God can make us both feel clear to take the steps that he wants us to take.

          It was real cool here last night and this morning.  It reminded me of the weather we had up at Langdon, Mo.  While I was reminded of that I was also reminded of that dear girl (Carrie) that I was with a few hours which I enjoyed so much.

          I can say that I feel sure that I would enjoy being with you again.  (even more than before)

          I am praying that God will continue to talk to both of us and reveal his will more and more on his leadings for us.

          I will tell you this, and that is that I really feel like I need some more sure leadings for my self concerning just exactly what God would have me do, before we were to marry.

          When I was back home (in Ala.) the Lord seems to make it plain to me that he wanted me to come back out there to work for him, Both spiritually and temporally.  My job that I had then was in a cotton-mill five days per week.  I had Sat. and Sun. off to do what ever God wanted to do.

          It also seemed to be plain that it was God’s will for me to marry and have a home there in B’ham, Ala. As I felt burden for the work of the Lord there, and had hopes of God raising a congregation up there.  You see I was looking forward for God to send some more saint Ministers in there to work for him.  There isn’t any saints there, so I thought if I had a home there I would have a chance to work for God in doing what ever and all he led me to do and it would also give other Ministers a chance to come in there and work as the Lord led them.

I was writing to Ida May Smith then , and naturally I just felt pretty sure that she would be the one that the Lord would give me.  Although I found out different when we got to gether a gain.

All of this seems very plain and real before I left Ala.  I believed it was God’s will with out a doubt.  I still earnestly believe that God will lead and is leading that way, but here is what I have been trying to get to.  And that is (even though those leadings seemed very plain and from God that I want a refreshed leading concerning the matter Before I go (Lord willing.)

This has been quite a trial of faith with me, But I guess the Lord knows best.  What I mean is how that he made it so plain that he wanted me out there and then he took me up and set me down out here and let me stay here until now with out telling me just when he would send me back.  But I am still trusting in God with all my heart and believing that he will work all things out for our good and his glory.  I have often reminded the Lord of how he witnessed to me about going out there.

It would seem good to me (a blessing that I am unworthy of) that the Lord would give you for my wife and companion to go out there and work for him.  Truly I would feel greatly blessed.

I will continue to pray for God to lead us in every step that he would have us take.
If you can’t get some new pictures made pretty early, you may send me one of the ones that you already have and then feel assured that I will appreciate it very much.

Well I had better say goodnight and good by for this time as it is after one o’clock A.M.

Love

T.V. McMillian

I Was Glad to Receive Your First Letter

Guthrie Okla.

920 W. Manrur ave.

Sept. 2, 1943

Dear Carrie,
It is with much pleasure that I write to you again.
I received you very welcomed and interesting letter last Tue.  We went over to D--- camp-meeting Tue. morning, and when we got back there were two letters waiting for me, one from you and one from my Mother.  I was really glad to get my first letter from you.  I am glad that you and Mildred had a safe trip home, although I am sorry that you had to wait so long and the didn't have a very comfortable ride, but I am glad that I know you had a comforter within your soul, which, when we have, makes the roads not seem so hard as they do to others who have no comforter.
Well this finds me still saved and happy in the Lord.  I am truly thankful that God made a way that all man-kind might be saved, not only be saved, but that he has fixed a way so that we can stay saved.  Truly he has fixed the way.  (not man)  I often think of that song where it says "Had I the choosing of my pathway, In blindness I should go astray, And wander far away in darkness, Nor reach that land of endless day."  I am thankful that God loves us so much to deal with us in his many ways.  I am sure he lets us suffer some time to keep us from going astray, such dealings with us is only God's mercy, yet I don't want to presume up-on the mercy of God, but as you said in your letter, I want to live very close to God that I might prove faithful in all things that I have to do with.  I am glad that God saved me, so I can help others to find rest too.
Carrie, I am sure you don't know how much I appreciated your letter.  It seemed to be with such sincerity and with truth.  I am very glad that you are taking my questions in consideration and that you are praying about the matter.
Truly this is a matter that needs to be considered very carefully with much prayer, and then waiting upon the Lord for his leadings.  I know he will lead us right.  The Bible says, "The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry." Pro 34:15.  (I only want the will of God to be done.)
Bro. Gibson and Family were down here last week and so he did the preaching down at the chapel Sun. morn. and Sun. night.  In one of his sermons (I forget which one) he mentioned about when he was first saved and that he met the saints about then (This was before he was married)  He said that he wanted a wife but that he felt unworthy of getting married to any of the saint girls.  Well I said that to say this, that I too feel unworthy of asking you to be my wife.  I wasn't asking you because I felt worthy but because I felt it was God's will.  You can be sure that I would not ask you to do such a thing unless I thought it was his will.  I have to much respect for you and for God to do such a thing.  I wouldn't want to ask any one to do any thing that I thought would be a hindrance to them in serving the Lord.  If two people were to marry out of the order of the Lord I know life wouldn't be near so happy or useful had they let the Lord lead them.  So if I were to be wrong in my request it would only be through ignorance, but even at this (at my sincerity) I am just glad to commend you to pray about the matter, and then do as you know God wants you to do.
Carrie, I still say that you have won a place in my heart that no other girl has ever won.  I really enjoyed being with you better than any other girl that I have been with.  The fellowship was more sweeter with you than with any other.
Carrie can you say that you love me more than just a christian friend,  I can say that about you, although I am sure that even divine love can be increased toward one another.  I heard one Sis. say that she had to pray for God to put love in her heart for the man he had shown her to marry.  I heard another Sis. say that she thought her and Husband loved one another to the fullest extent before they were married, but now the have been married over nine years and she said that their love was continually increasing.  ( They are saints.)  I believe when 2 Christian people unite in holy matrimony that their life continues to be a greater blessing to each other as each day of their life flows by.
You spoke in your letter about wondering what I was doing while you was writing (Sun).  Well I was probably up here in my room reading or writing  some.  I write quite-a-few letters and also read quite-a-little bit.  I was reading in a book entitled "Birth of a Reformation: Life and Labor of D.S. Warner".  This was Published by Gospel Trumpet quite a little while after they compromised and thereby some of it didn't seem to be as interesting as it should have been.
Yes Carrie I would love to been able to have went along with you to church, I am sure I would have enjoyed your company and I am also sure I would have enjoyed the meeting.  I have gotten much good out of all the sermons that I have heard you preach.
If I should be able to make a visit up to Neosho some time would it be alright with you for me to come and see you?  I am still waiting for the leadings of the Lord concerning me leaving here and to know just where he would have me to go.  So I was just thinking that if I went back to Ala. I would love to see you before I left, if it was God's will.
Manuel Mitchell in leaving for La. (his home) to morrow and Dorthy Byers is leaving for New Mexico to morrow.  She is going down to Clovis N. Mexico where she expects to be in a revival meeting with her Sis. and with other saints there.  She doesn't know just how long she will be gone.  I might be the Lord's will for me to stay on here a while longer.  If it is I will gladly do so.   I thought I would have already been gone but the Lord hasn't made me feel clear to leave yet.
Well it is getting time to bring your letter to a close for this time.
May the God bless you and comfort your heart is my prayer.

Love

           T. V. McMillian

P.S. I am sending you a picture that I had made last winter.  Don't forget I still want one of you when you get it, please!

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